Brandon Dahl and I have been friends for a while and sometimes more then friends. I am my self with him more then i am with anyone but that is only because i trust him. But my problem is that it is sometimes a confusing relationship. When minute we are friends and then boyfriend and girlfriend and then i do not hear from him for a couple months and it starts all over again. Its like a emotional roller coaster. And there are days that i just want to jump of and run. But he's a;;ways there and when i think i am over again he calls again. I do not know what to do sometimes. Sometimes i ask my self "am i settling for Brandon?" and i can not answer that question. And i want to. Do i think that i can only deserve Brandon? Do i think i can not do any better? There is a bunch of questions i can ask about this but i do not have those answers and i do not think any body knows the answer to that.
I love Brandon with all my heart and i do not think that will ever change. But can i do better? Brandon knows who i am as a person but sometimes i think he doesn't know anything. I know everything about him. Im just lost and confused on why he was put in my life.
"Everything happens for a reason"~ Kung Fu Panda
Maybe i wont know the answer now but i hope that i start to know the reason soon. Because this is something that has been on my heart for a while.
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