IM NOT OKAY!!!!

All the time my friends ask me if i am okay or they ask how are you? if you knew me you would understand that i wont tell you i am hurt or that im sad or im mad i will lie and say i am happy or that im good and then change the subject to say i miss them or something.... but im getting tried of lying to my friends im tried of saying im okay when im not.....but what can i do.....so i tell them on facebook that im not and the people who cared once and then stoped and when they see something that im not okay they act like they care and that kind-of makes me angry...

But im not okay i never have been i dont know what im not happy i have a good life and i have my happy days but why am i never truely happy....

So basically what this post is saying "IM NOT OKAY" and if i say i am most likely i am lying to you